Ive moved my blog to blogger. Hehe

here it is

the rasmus

Been Catching up with my studies and sleep and food all week long. Too lazy to drag my ass of my comfy bed into the my running shoes. Hehe. The cold weather also makes my body not want to uncurl itself from its sleeping position underneath my warm quilt and my comforter. I just want to sleep and sleep. When I am awake I have to study and some days work.

Cant wait to complete my exams. Its only on the 2nd week of holidays. Cant wait too because I get to meet Ika's mum. Cant believe its almost a year since I saw her. Hehe. She sure can cook a lovely meal in this really gloomy weather.

I realised that My Chem-E-Car competition is on the 1st of October. OH man!! Same day as hari Raya!! What Lah. Nevermind. At least If I dont win I can still celebrate Raya! hahaha

I am thinking of getting sponsorship from BHP Billiton. hehehe.

ok I better study now. Still have a chapter to study. and leaves me with 3 days to practice the questions in kinetics before I have to study thermodynamics.

Salam and Cheers

Was on my way to Uni. Was late which was unusual because I got stuck talking to Kavi and Asila about logan's antiques and sleeping pattern. So it was raining preety hard and i was using my backpack instead of my Converse sling back since I wanted to carry my Kinetics textbook which is like a few kilograms....to study in the library....Ok ok i am getting to the point. SO I was rushing cause I promised to meet Rachel at 11 am and since i was a bit late I heard my phone rang. I had to answer it and when i opened up my back pack, guessed what, my pencil box slid out of my bag.....I had to be on a bridge at the time of occurrence. there were small cracks between the bridge and after sliding out of my bag, my pencil case decided to slide through the cracks and into the swampy pond underneath the bridge. I Stared at it because what just happened didnt register in my brain. And when I saw it slowly falling off the bridge then it clicked into me that my THUMBDRIVE WITH ALL MY ASSIGNMENTS AND PROJECT REPORTS WERE IN IT!!!! OH MY GOD!!!! and the PENCILBOX WAS A GIFT FROM IKA'S MUM TO ME!!! I shouted like some crazy person repeating " No No No No...this cant be happening while my phone kept ringing. I went down near the bank of the swampy thingy which was so gross trying to reach the pencil case but I couldnt reach it without getting myself so dirty and muddy. I ran to rachel who was waiting for me at the bus stop and was like....I was only 10 mins late!!! WHAT THE HELL!!! why are u calling me!! arghh!!! I lost my pencil case and thumbdrive and went into the spiral of panic attacks.Luckily Rachel had the extra soft copy which I had sent to her the night before. My assignments and projects were able to be recovered. Thank GoD for that. Phew!! Had to spend about $13 on a new thumbdrive cause I do need to save my work in it. 2 years of work all down the swamp....haiz. Lesson learnt..make sure ure not at a bridge when you open your bag.

Had chicken rice, stir fried vege and choc bavarian swirl cake. I am so freaking full. Have to study now. Exams are coming up soon. Adios people

Been Extremely busy and exhausted. Had a couple of assignments and quiz this week and also having to work about 18hrs/week. The money is good. i get about $280-300/week from the 2 jobs so who am i to complain right? Of course it gets tiring and stressful having to balance out study and work but I think i could get used to it.

Exams are in 3 weeks. I cant believe how fast time flies. Again the same thing happened last year is happening again. Its always the same thing. But this time around I am much more matured and i have more options and I realized from the experience I gained so much more than what I lost. its just a small thing I lost. Its nothing much I guess. I guess in life nothing is ever permanent except for your family. Even then family is not permanent. They do leave you at some point. I guess it was hard lesson to learn but I learn it anyway. To other people I might seem like I am running away but that is how I deal with stuff like this. But overall when i look back, I have this amazingly good group of friends, amazing jobs, amazing place to live in, amazing mum who supports me and an amazing kitty and a unlimited possibilities. Hoho. I have gained a lot more in this experience. I have learned to be positive, accept people and changes, accept life as it is and the challenges it throws to us. Allah is fair. He is also helps me balance out stuff. He knows me the best I must say and probably knows what is good or bad for me. He helped me get rid of the bad parts in my life because he wants me to be good an always remember Him and be appreciative of what I have. And for the first time in my life, I feel as if things happen for a reason and now I know how to appreciate it more. I cant hate whatever happened but just take things in stride because the way I look at it, I learned who my friends are, I learn that i am stronger and now a much more positive kid, I got this amazing opportunity to thrive in my industry. Alhamdullilah, right now i am satisfied. I am.

Oh my GOD!!! Liyana wants to come here!! yipeez!!! Hmm got to reply her email back. Liyana if you are reading this, check your email inbox ok. i would have emailled you back. Cant wait for another month to be over so that i could meet Ira and crap alot. Then hopefully Liyana comes down to this huge Island!!hahaha

Not really a firm believer of this birth signs things but in the quran there was something that state about the astronomy factor which is true for you. Somehow or rather when I read a lot of this horoscope thingy Im kind of surprised to read that it is true.

Siti Durrah, you were born under the sign of Capricorn and your ruling planet is Saturn, the planet of patience, wisdom and maturity. You are a very responsible woman, a hard and tenacious worker. You feel strong and independent and are capable of making great efforts and sacrifices in order to reach your goals. Your practical and realistic sense of life allows you to solve many problems, and your serious and profound manner instills a lot of confidence and respect in the people around you. You have an innate capacity to direct and organize people but you prefer a job involving less contact with them. Life is hard for you and full of challenges, however, you have the strength necessary to triumph in every single task you start. Your style is traditional and conservative; you are not interested in attracting attention nor do you expect great recognition for your efforts. You are the support of your family and the one who assumes the great majority of the responsibilities. You are not interested in maintaining a large social life but with your few friends you have a parental, protective attitude; you offer yourself totally once you trust or love. You are firm in your opinions and objectives and it is difficult for you to change them; your patience and perseverance are admirable.

Each site i go to they will say the same thing. You will offer yourself totally once you trust and love somebody.....Offer up everything??? OH My god!! this is bad!! What if the person i love is a conman or decides not to love me anymore?? Far out. I know i cant take it. I cant take it. I already couldnt take it when a dear friend of mind decided to never talk to me anymore. I couldnt take it when my dad decided not to care for me anymore. I cant take it. I do not want to give myself up for anyone. No No...I will not be that vulnerable.

Anyway. Asila, KAvi and I got a kitten. A domestic short haired little kitty. We named him Logan Asirus Oneill. Hahaha. We decided to have 3 names for it since we could not make up our mind which one of the names to give. He is such a naughty boy. I feel happy and sad around him. I have been talking to him about who I missed and he was licking my face trying to cheer me up. Or maybe he was just licking the breadcrumbs of my face. haha

I am glad we got him. but right now I am broke. I am so freaking broke. ARGH!!! I need some cash flow.

Listening to Jay sean's song called Good Enough. I was thinking if I were to find the perfect guy, what if he is not good enough in the eyes of my mum and my aunt....cause honestly i don't really care about the rest of my family's opinion except them. Will I Immediately break up with him because he isnt good enough in their eyes? I have a feeling I will. but lets just hope things arent as complicated as that

Went to Uni at 9 today. Which is way early for me. Haha. Actually I was awake at 6.30 am but was too damn lazy to get out of bed as the warmness of my quilt really make me so comfy. Love my quilt!!

Waiting for 2 pm so that i can meet siubhan to update my marks. She didnt upload it cause she thought I didnt hand it in when in fact i handed it in, and got it back yesterday. FAR OUT!!

Got to work today. have to work more i guess so that i can for the damage to wan's car! bloody hell man. What could be fixed in singapore for $50 cost 11 times more here! FAR OUT!! Bleargh!. Gtg bye

I cant even remember what or when i last blogged. I honestly dont have the time. Well I am supposed to be doing my Kinetics assignment but how can I when I have no idea how to proceed in doing the question. FAR OUT!!! I think its because I dont have the current edition textbook for it. It means I have to go to Uni early tomorrow. Well the library actually so that I could read the book and do this stupid assignment. Honestly the amount of work we put in into tis 5% assignments is just not worth it. But its 5%. a tiny winy line between pass and fail and pass and credit.

Haiz...if my life wasnt dictated by academic transcript id probably be out jumping from a helicopeter, absailing or doing something that doesnt really involve kinetics. Far OUT!!!

My days are packed. Not a single day will pass by in which I am not doing assignment or in this case today (trying to do it), work, more assignments, a quiz to study for and so many other stuffs

I am in Love with JAY SEAN. I WANT TO GO TO LONDON AND ASK HIM TO MARRY ME

Oh yeah ive moved. My room aka the garage is huge!! its actually preety comfortable. Very homely feel. Reminds me of my crib back home where i basically dont really share my air with 7 other people. Its really quiet here which is what I need I think right now. Well except for when I am listening to my songs which is like 75% of the time. The other 25% being me in slumberland and in classes.

I think i should head to bed soon lah. Want to wake up at 6 tomorrow. I should really try my best to go to uni at 8. probably get a hot choc to prep my body for the long day. Ok people. thats all for now. bye

I was trying to remember what I came to Australia for. I realised that I wanted to travel around australia every semester break, and get good results for my studies. I have no idea why I didnt do it. I only went to Sydney a few times, blue mountains, wollongong and nowhere else. Hmm...when i think back now, I really want to start travelling back. I think this winter hols I would go to Sydney to explore Bondi, some night spots there, then head to melbourne and explore every inch of that place.

If I have the money, I think I should head to New Zealand to get to see the beauty of the place in Summer. Hehe

Now that I have 2 jobs i think Id be financially stable.

Oh yeah, i want to move to melbourne too when I graduate. yeah I want to work there. Or maybe sydney. hehe. I dont want to work in Newcastle anymore. its the most boring place on Earth.

I have plans and i shall stick to them. I have a lot of good and caring friends whom will support me no matter what. I do not want to grow old and regret not doing anything I wanted here. I am a free spirit. I do not want to be tied down by anyone.

Well time to sleep now

I just finished my assignment. Yay! spent like a whole day on that stupid assignment.

The weekend had been crazy for me. Slept at Ika's place on saturday night because I was seeing Zee of as she returns home for her holidays and come back just before exams. I was working for 3 nights straight. friday through sunday and working again tomorrow. Starting to save up for my melbourne trip.

Tonight I am going into town to watch Iron man with kavi asila, muna and rachel. hehehe

But before that I have to photocoty my assignment question from the Kinetics book. Bodzio is really trying to kill us. hehehe

May, a friendship was stopped on the 1st of may, an interview was done on the 2nd of May, A decision to move on the 3rd of May, confirmation of moving the same day, a friends birthday on the 4th, seeing the new place on the 5th of may, job being offered on the 6th of may..........

May oh May

in a week so many stuffs good and bad happened. Well this week is much more positive in terms of things happening

I am glad I got the job. Putting one foot into the industry.

Wah! confirm! I am going to move out. Everyone gave me the green light already. So this weekend I am moving some of my stuffs out. Then next week move the rest of my things and I will no longer be here.

I have to apologize to amita for moving out to soon. She is so going to kill me. Hahakz

So my schedule for this week is study for my kinetics mid term which accounts for 35%, pack my stuffs, work for 2 nights and keep the whole moving out thing under wrap and from anyone else's noses

Thihih

Busy busy week.

havent been to the gym for a whooping 3 days and 3 days of extreme junking has made my almost toned stomach bulge. Haiya!! This is what they call emo eating and I had been feeling under the weather too

I had a good time calling Ira an chatting with her for 2 hours. I cant believe how much I babbled. I feel a bit ashamed but that what friends do

Oklah i gtg. Study kinetics again

Im going crazy over jay Sean. Oh my god! I have no idea why it is happening. This feeling of craziness coming over me liking an artist. He is so HOOOTT!! Im practically drooling over him. His pictures cover my Uni desktop, my msn display picture and my laptop. His song is being used as my ringtones.

Oh by the way. I am probably moving out soon from this place. Going to email Andrew as soon as possible. Going to be a blistering winter but i don't care anymore.

My bond money I am going to use for some basic stuffs at my new place. hehe

Whoever reads this. Just dont tell anybody else ok

aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I havent really slept. I went out to walk around thinking about my negative attitude and the results of it and the effect with people around me. I backtracked so many years into which I found out that I have this negative attitude. I found out that the negative attitude was my defence mechanism and my escape from thinking I was wrong. I think I walked in the cold weather for a couple of hours without stopping and i felt sick after that. My body feels weak, and i started shaking uncontrollaby. I thought i was having a seizure or something. Lesson learn...dont ever walk in the cold in shorts and only slippers on. Hehe

I dont want to be that negative person anymore.

Even my auntie told me this yesterday. I feel insecure to leave that negativity behind me, but that negativity has affected my life, relationships and close friendships enough. Its time to move on and not dwell on the negative thoughts. That is how then my life will achieve completeness and then I would be able to return into GOd's Hand.

After much deliberation I realised that I am a very negative person. Extremely negative that it had been dragging me down the path to almost destruction. I felt really LOw for the past couple of weeks actually, picking my self up once in a while. But somehow yesterday as i was bouncing on my bed in my room, shouting my heart out (of course with my music being blasted all the time) I kind of fell asleep and something in me just said out loud. Im not sure whether it is a dream or somebody whispering into my ear. It said "Durrah you are such a negative person...You are dragging yourself down...why are you such a negative person when you ask so many people to be positive....you have to be positive durrah and see your world in a better light....because positive things happent to positive people" and than that was when I woke up. I kept thinking whether I had been negative all this while and why I was like that. And of course i realised where this all started. I realised it and I immediately got over it. Oh my god!! all those years of wasted youth on negativity. I shall not be negative anymore. I shall be positive and and see the world in a different light because positive things comes to positive people...not HIV positive ok...but Positive thinking people. Ok ok i better be off now.

So hungry lah

I have to change myself. Be a bit more sensitive to other people's feeling.

Dont feel like studying today. I have an exam next week. Mid terms..so its like 25% of my total . I am stressed about it, but my mind doesnt seem to want to study.

Today was absolutely cold. The wind was drying my skin up. I have to moisturize it with my Moringa body butter from Bodyshop. Love that smell...

Sometime I think that my life is a joke. God is really testing my patience and perseverance for each of his test. I dont want to go into my depressed feeling again like I did last time. I should really pull through all of this.

I care for all my friends. I do hope you all know that. You are never far away from my mind.

Take care and wish all is well again soon. THat is enough

I asked my closest housemate this question "Who would you turn gay for?" Noone seemed to answer it. Haha. I answered my own question, Maybe Angelina Jolie or Natalie Portman.

Did u know that Ive never watch the Notebook?? Haha. I know I know. One of the most romantic stories ever but I didn't watch it. What the hell is wrong with me right?? Haha.

I think I should watch it tonight and complete my assignment tomorrow.

Currently stuck with a couple of songs from Jay Sean. Hehe. One of them is called man's world with ramta jogi. Its pretty cool.

I think I should just chill tonight and do my work today.

Listening to Bhangra songs. Dont know why lah

I had fun at the gym with zee today. Looking at some hot guys. played skipping with her too. Haha.

Ok i better go. I should go to bed early and wake up early tomorrow. 2 more days and my holidays are over. It'll be back to studying, assignments, exams, competitions, work and try to squeeze in a thing or two in the social department

Ok i better go to sleep. I think my body needs the rest

I played this so called game at a dinner gathering with all my girlfriends the other day. Apparently if you tie a strand of your hair onto a silver ring and then dip it according to your supposedly age to marry the ring will start circling like a pendulum. Really up to you whether you believe it or not. Honestly I don't because the age I am supposedly going to marry is 25. Which is like so much younger than most of my friends. And I have always been the one to go against the institution of marriage for obvious reasons.

But again. This was just for fun and I am the person to go to when you look for fun

Though in sadness, people will think Im having the most fun. though in misery I care more for people. A habit instilled into me. to always care for people, no matter how much they hurt you at times.

Yesterday I spend like 3 hours at the gym, trying to break my record of running at 14km/hr for 30seconds to 15km/hr in 30 seconds. The threadmill was going so fast that i thought i was running for my life on it. My heart was pumping so fast. My heart felt like it was going to explode. I couldnt hear anything else. I couldnt really breathe. My legs were moving so fast that i thought it would just fly all over the place. Instead of 30 seconds I ran for 45 seconds. It was amazing. I stopped, panting, sweat dripping down, i was in pain, but I never felt that good in my life. I was grinning to myself. I am trying to go for the 1 minute mark today.

Going to Rachel place to do my kinetics assignment. Bye people

Its almost 2 am. Maybe when i finish it itll be just be over 2 am. I am done with 2 of my assignment. that stupid 3000 word essay in which I am still sort of about 50 words and Thermodynamics assignment 4.

That will leave me with only Kinetics assignment and also the exam to worry about.

its only friday of week 1 of term break.

I should take a bit of break tomorrow before starting to study again. Maybe watch a movie or 2. U know. and then cook inner for my friends and hang out with them

I am missing a dear friend of mine so much. I wonder when I am able to talk to her again. I miss her

Ok its 3 minutes after 2am. i think i should log out now and head to lala land. another long day ahead tomorrow. Cheerioz.

i am currently in Uni right now. Came here about two hours ago to watch a video for my essay. Finally I have the complete materials to do my essay. Sp another 1000++ words to be completer.

I had a nice time yesterday with a couple of my friends. Made a new friend through Peter the other day and her name was Azarm. She is an Iranian girl. I like looking at her. oooops...I sound so Gay now. but yeah she is preety. I think Persian people are just so preety. I really like her features alot though. Hope to get together and hang around often. heheh. Her house is not that far away from my place.

Hooked to Jordin Sparks new single called No Air. Maybe I fell in love with it because at the time I heard the song it felt like I was suffocating.

My future is still a blur for me. I wish I had this extremely concrete plan as to how I am to proceed. A part of me wants to go back and a part of me wants me to stay here. I just hope i dont lose anything along the way.

i want to say my thanks to God for lightening the load on my shoulder, my heart and my brain. Alhamdullilah, everythign feels better nowadays.

i want to thank my mum for being there for me no matter what. Your voice soothes and calm my soul each time mama. Thank you. I love you

I want to thank Ira and Liyana for being there and asking how I am though we are far away. about 7 hours of flight. hehe. Then I want to thank my housemates, my good mates here for being there. Even though you have no idea what I was going through, at least all of you had lightened up my dark days and now what I can see is just the light of hope and the surety of everything is going to be fine.

Alhamdulillah. my prayers were answered.

Been destressing alot lately. Went clubbing, last night and the previous week. It was fun to go with your friends. The previous week there were like 15 of us who went and that was one of the greatest fun I have had for along while.
Im down with 2 assignments and will start doing the other 3 really soon. Must start my revision soon. Pray that all is going to be well

It had been a hard week for me. I don't know why but i felt really lonely and lost. I just kept missing home so much. Its as if I could feel a total emptiness in me and someone calling for me and for that whole week and I was just a mere existence and insignificant living in this body, my soul is off somewhere.

Hey Ira, I tried to cry to De-Stress like you told me too, but I just couldn't cry at all. i tried but I cant. Instead, i took my stressed and upset self to the gym today and did a bloody rigorous workout. I felt better, but once I head into the showers, that darkness fell back onto me. I think I should just try to take things easy. Maybe the fact that Ive been trying to accomplish so many stuff within this last few weeks have taken a toll on my emotional and physical stability.

I better head to bed before i talk more crap

I have 5 assignments due after the term break and a midterm too. So much things to do but I reckon it should be alright. I just have to focus and get into the whole studying mode

One thing I know about myself is that i need to go to a place where I could study so that I could focus

My mum called me up yesterday and she sounded upset. One of her old time friends passed away a day before. That was her second friend in a space of less than six months. Of course, then you would feel the mortality of your life an how easily it can be taken away from you.

God...if you are reading this, I pray that you would protect my family, loved ones, friends and myself from any harm that is to befall them and give us strength to go through the tough period. Amin

There is nothing more scarier than a future of uncertainties.

Dear mama,
Akak want to wish you a very happy birthday. Though I am not there to celebrate with you I hope that you are able to enjoy your birthday and I hope you wont miss me that much on this special day.

GoD!! I miss my mum. I wish she was here to quieten all my troubled fears, for me to talk to. I miss her alot. Sobz sobz sobz. When is the next time I am able to see her again? when?? sobz

it gets lonely here at times. i think thats why people hook up i guess. to prevent that loneliness from creeping into them for a while longer.

Im seriously feeling lonely right now. i reckon the best way to get over loneliness is to sleep it off or work my arse off.a

WHY CRY

durrah-means pearl in arabic. It means i am rare to find and to get. My personality is not in corfomance with others. Other people with the name durrah that i know of.....Sherese durrah, victor and tavares durrah. their family name is durrah. No idea why they added me though

durrah is currently hooked to black violin's music and true live music. It just made sense to be romantically linked to them.

Durrah is a bit stressed (actually not a bit but a whole lot) due to unforseen future. No idea where to settle, work, play an even uncertain about friends she had made

Durrah seems to be planning a couple of things but whether she would be able to stick to it is another question.

Im so freaking stressed.

Quick entry. its been a really quick week. Had holidays since wednesday evening last week till today. Because of the long easter hols and no classes. Wed and thursday didnt do much except for assignments, lab reports and bumming around, shopping. However thursday peter and I headed out to Bar on the hill to catch this band called true live. THEY WERE AWESOME!! I bought their c and now kind of owe peter $10. Sat and sunday I worked and thus my weekend was burnt. Monday and tuesday was my chill out days i guess. went to the gym on tuesday with rekha and i think i did way too much sit ups that my neck is now cramping up. Got work again tomorrow and im getting paid!! woohoo!!

Saving up for melbourne trip you see. Mahirah!!! you see how much I have to sacrifice?? hahaha...just kidding lah. I really want to head down there.

anyways got to get back to my assignment and give some treatment to my neck

I cant believe how fast the week breeze by. Its like Saturday already and soon a new week will fly by and it'll be another saturday.

However even with my super busy-ness i still had time to go for a latin dance party in my Uni. I was a bit worried since ive never did latin dance salsa for that matter. but i went. And from there I met so many other students who was also in my situation. But yeah, the person handing out the wrist band taught us a couple of basic steps and from there another instructor taught us a couple of cool moves. Danced with the malaysian guy Bizi and then with Wakana my housemate and we had so much of fun. Learned a couple of cool steps and the people who already knew how to salsa seems to be having fun showing off their moves and they looked so hot and cool doing it. hehehe

will try to update pictures to facebook soon. tata

Im super duper busy this week. I have a tight schedule for my assignments and lab report. Basically I have 3 assignments and a report due next week. I am down with the report, one of the assignment though i still have to chart the upcoming stock market index for Dow Jones and All ORDs. though i have no clue what market movements are.

Still have this stupid kinetics assignment which is really taking alot of my free time.

Was so freaking stressed today that i took it out by working out at the gym until my hamstring muscle was pulled. but nonetheless I am good. Today's lecture was a killer man. The lecturer made the most interesting lecture ever to become the most dry topic ever. I have always like thermodynamics and did well in polytechnic but this time around I could feel my body resisting itself from entering that lecture hall. hehehe

Well i better head to bed now. Its almost 2 am and i have lecture at 11 am. got to wake up and iron my clothes and stuffs and shower...blah blah blah..preety much a routine. Got to go. Bye.

Today was the INS bbq. it went preety well in which we broke even for the amount of money we spend for the BBq. Thanks alot for people who came. I have the nicest picture of my housemates now. Love it

I went back and fell asleep. When I woke up i was told by amita that she was going clubbing to fanny's because Sean Kingston would be there. She asked me along and I said yes. After a short talk with rekha, I immeadiately got ready for the night, wearing a green top which i recently bought from temt and put on my makeup. I looked totally chinese. hehe.

Well of course I saw sean kingston. He is so much bigger than i thought. I took some snapshots of him and danced the night away with amita,zee,amber,azfa and bizi. It was fun but my legs were killing me as I wore my boots to the club. Then we drove to Mecca's and o ordered filet ofish meal and had it at newcastle beach. the guys were supposed to meet us but something held them up so we were all eating. At one point we wanted to get back into fanny's but realised that the clubs doesnt allow entry after 3am. And so that was the end of the day I guess.

I got to study today. must really study.

I Just feel as if the week had just jetted past me. I cant believe its already the weekends. Next week I only have 3 days of classes. Wee!! but I have 3 assignments due back to back the following week so..Sobzz

Rekha helped me shape my eyebrows back. after that stupid chinese lady almost destroyed my features big time. However now I totally look Cina-Fied. Grrr. Rekha couldnt stop making fun of me

Going out soon to help ZW and brendon to prep foo for tmrw. asking rachel along.

made friends with this american exchange student. I was worried because she was from New york and I was a muslim student. you know...the dynamics aren't too good but we manage to work around it. Phew...But anyway she was totally cook

Tomorrow is a big day for me. THe BBq that I organize will be on tomorrow with a change of venue to Baraheniban. Hope it goes well.

Ok gtg. Need to change

cant really remember when was the last time i updated my blog. It felt like Eons ago. I think the last i blogged was about going to sydney for the mardi gras parade. it was an awesome parade. never had i seen so many colours on a street, with so many personalities floating around. The parade was made of a lot of gays and lesbians. there were dykes on bikes, transexuals, gays about to be married and kids of these gays and lesbians families. It was a massive 3 hour parade and i was standing in front of parkridge apartments and I must say it was a good sport. I got that beads that u normally get at mardi gras for exposing ure boobies but of course i didnt. I just shouted my way to getting it. The gay guys were so hot and so beautiful!! i just wished they were straight or bisexual the most cause they were so hot. Well i kind of got kissed twice on the cheeks by 2 relative strangers. One by a gay and another by a lesbian. I think i was too caught up in the moment that I t didnt register in my mind that i was kissed. haha. OK! other than that I went shopping in market city and bought myself this pair of jeans for $10 when its original price was $90...great bargain..but i have to get it tailore due to it being too long!! hehe

im so tired. Just finish one of my lab reports. Going to have another lab tomorrow and i have around 3 asssignments pending. Got to juggle my time well!!

Well id upate some other time if I have the time. Cheerioz!!

happy bday to ika. May ure 24th bday be better and blessed in so many ways.

So we went to kavi/asila place at sunset Blvd and i brough nasi lemak, omelette and other stuffs

Im so freaking full from the whole thing. the strawberry cheesecake was so awesome

Going to sydney for Mardi gras. Hope it doesnt rain havily. Ciaoz

I am seriously lacking of time nowadays. I should really try to organize my work properly. And cut down some time hanging out with some people. hehe. Played monopoly a day back with Bizi, azfar and peter. We were joined by Wakana for a while but she headed to bed cause of early classes.

azfar got me so bankrupt when I landed on his hotel and had to pay 11.5MIllion. I almost choked when i had to sell my apartments in Hobart, Lanceston and mortgage my place in perth and all just to pay that amount. Thank god its just a game. If not i would have seriously killed someone

Tomorrow is my day off...eh actually today. since its 2.51 am here.

Well ok i gtg. better head to bed to get some rest. Ciao

My Extremely belated birthday party went extremely well. There were about 20-30 of us just partying at my backyard. Everyone wanted their music to be played and it was really confusing. My friends surprised me bu getting me not 1 not 2 but 3 cakes!! with 21/22 candles. they couldn't make up their mind

I was flirting non stop with my party guest. i think this semester I am extremely close to become a Player. maybe that whole commitment issue is still with me. but what the hell I just recently entered the 21 club. No commitments, no strings attached, no heart breaking. just pure flirting

Though there are at times I thought that I cant keep up with this

Today I had my first organization meeting. I am now the committee member doing the PR work. Got to take charge of the 1st event which is 2 weeks down the road. I hate organizing something. It gives me sleepless nights. Worrying too much

Going to sydney this sat. For Mardi gras. Hoping that some of my friends will come along for it

Well anyway. this is it. Going to asila's place to sleep there. Probably bringing my thermo book to prep myself for tomorrow lecture. bye

It has been a crazy week for me. Classes has already started and I realised i have a couple of things to tackle in hand. The past week, i had spend some time dividing myself between my old friends, newfound friends, house mate, Uni classes, Committee work/meetings etc.

Yesterday had am impromptu movie session and we were joined by Peter who was awesome on the guitar. We had a sing along session and had a chat till late.

Well anyway I gtg. I have a proposal meeting for the welcome party. Heheh. Adios

I wanted to update this site for a couple of days already but my schedule had been kind of hectic. Been going out partying with new friends for the last 3-4days. There was club night in Uni, clubbing at brewery and fanny's, gathering at my place and dinner outside.

Don't even have time for gym the last couple of days. I am determined to go today though. Possibly around 4 or 5pm. Need to sleep for a while since I haven't been sleeping a lot for the last couple of days. Only getting 3-4 hours of sleep the most.

Uni is going to start on Monday. I cant wait for a new semester to start. i really want to do well. Though the journey had been hard I'll persevere.

Better sleep a bit now

i had a long day yesterday. Woke up at 9am so that i could go to cardiff to get wanz car from the repair shop. then i went back and relaxed for a while waiting for Rekha to prepare before heading for Charlestown. I basically didnt remember the way there but thank god Rekha did. We had tons of fun and I was a bit sad that i couldnt get this funky working top. it looked really good but it was about $30 and i realised that i didnt want to waste money so there goes the top. I just hope Temt will have a sale for it soon -_-". We had sushi and I had my mango madness and we talked about stuff, catching on what we had missed for the last 5 months.

after getting back i had a short shower so that I wont smell bad when i met ros to help her move to ika's place. Thank god i had that Subaru car to help with the luggage.

Somehow or rather, Wakana my new housemates wanted to go to the international party which was beig held at the Bar in our uni. I didnt want to go initially but changed my mind seeing how i didnt have any plans and it beats staying at home and doing absolutely nothing. THus I went and was dragged to the dance floor. I was in my tudung and was wearing a jumper but didnt really car. a couple of guys joined us and we all danced in a circle, the guys bought us drinks and after everything ended there were 7 of us and we all cramped into that Subaru. it was a hilarious scene. 3 guys and 4 girls sitting together in that small space. thank god each one's house was near. So the cramping was shortlived. Without realising it, in like a short span of time of probably 2 hours, I made about 4 new friends. Hehe. I hope to hang out more with these new friends soon. And i mean like...Tonight?? hehe

i had a long day yesterday. Woke up at 9am so that i could go to cardiff to get wanz car from the repair shop. then i went back and relaxed for a while waiting for Rekha to prepare before heading for Charlestown. I basically didnt remember the way there but thank god Rekha did. We had tons of fun and I was a bit sad that i couldnt get this funky working top. it looked really good but it was about $30 and i realised that i didnt want to waste money so there goes the top. I just hope Temt will have a sale for it soon -_-". We had sushi and I had my mango madness and we talked about stuff, catching on what we had missed for the last 5 months.

after getting back i had a short shower so that I wont smell bad when i met ros to help her move to ika's place. Thank god i had that Subaru car to help with the luggage.

Somehow or rather, Wakana my new housemates wanted to go to the international party which was beig held at the Bar in our uni. I didnt want to go initially but changed my mind seeing how i didnt have any plans and it beats staying at home and doing absolutely nothing. THus I went and was dragged to the dance floor. I was in my tudung and was wearing a jumper but didnt really car. a couple of guys joined us and we all danced in a circle, the guys bought us drinks and after everything ended there were 7 of us and we all cramped into that Subaru. it was a hilarious scene. 3 guys and 4 girls sitting together in that small space. thank god each one's house was near. So the cramping was shortlived. Without realising it, in like a short span of time of probably 2 hours, I made about 4 new friends. Hehe. I hope to hang out more with these new friends soon. And i mean like...Tonight?? hehe

Been lazing around a lot lately. Waking up at 11am or 12pm then lazing around some more before heading for the gym or going out for a jog for 2-3 hours and than come back home and slack even more. Good Life man.

Still searching for a bloody job. Its hard. but Id continue searching

Met a new malay lay from Singapore. A teacher here in study leave or 2 years. Been hanging out with her for the last 2 days Showing her around campus and the city though the weather had been terrible. Its been raining for the last 2 weeks I was here in Newcastle which is so UNSUMMER-like hehehe. But I did maage to go to the beach yesterday with her and the beach never cease amaze me at its Beauty.

This semester I have 4 new housemates. Alet, Ding, Nina and Andrew moved out. Replaced by eeHong, Iris, Waraka and Amita. first 2 from china, followed by japan and amita from India.

It seems that all the Singaporean malays are mving to Waratah West. Same Kampung/Village as to what Mr Wan says.

Im a bit worried about this new semester. Must really pull up my socks. Must get a good job at the end of it or get a lecturer to sponsor my studies at Master's level.

I was browsing through the movies and this was recommended to me. Loving AnnaBell. Pretty moving story. Loving, very good storyline but its a lesbian story. it didnt hit me at first until the part where the lead said that she was only interested in girls. but what the heck both of them were hot and the movie was really good to watch so I continued watching it.

Went to the gym today and I was shocked at the new layout. its almost twice the size the last time I saw it. New Equipments, New threadmills new everything. I felt like a kid entering the gym!! it was so super cool. Heading back there again tmrw. I think I should go ahead and join the classes too. Hehe...adios

I sat down today thinking of the same topic that has been recurring in my brain. This was the result of a conversation I had with a friend of mine online. The result of my conversation led me to think about the stuff I needed to do for the next few years. And that is how I came with my 5 year plan. It includes my plan for this year like graduate with honours, apply for my PR here, thinking of making lots of contacts for professional referral and the next 4 years to my age of 26. Some of the things include paying my loan start a saving fund for my retirement/Aidil's education, get my Masters accreditation, getting a reliable car etc etc...

Im currently hooked to this song called Pictures of You from the band the last goodbye. I really like the part when it enters the bridge of "CONFESS TO ME!!!" That was the part of the song I love the most.

Did my schedule/timetable so that I could manage my time better. I realised that I have alot of time on hand. Just hope I can get a job. Im not really fussy but the thing is I cant handle the food!! ah maybe I should try to go to Oporto and work. Well whatever

Nytie

I was having this deep thought conversation with myself at 3 am in the morning. I have no idea what I was saying to myself now but at that point of time It MADE PERFECT SENSE. but still I can remember what I had thought or probably even said

Met this lady who is a Malay Singaporean married to an Aussie and I spent a couple of hours at her place. She lived in a modest town house with her husband and their 5 year old son, Daniel. Man..that kid had an aussie accent and he was so damn cute. I was looking at him and thinking, man i wish i was 4 or years old. hehehe. I was playing with him with another 2 year old girl a daughter of a malaysian PHD student. The kids name was Julia and it reminded me of the band "Exist" song. Both of them was speaking Aussie English to me and I was speaking to them in English ( which sounded a bit american but who cares) and playing with them. Its been quite a while since I last played with kids and it was awesome.

well I gtg. Will update soon

yeah! Im back In newcastle. Yipeez..Freedom without the hassle of thinking about Crowds!!

Had a great ast couple of days before i headed off but the best was my buffet dinner with my family to celebrate my mum's pay increase. Had so much to eat and a great deal of fun joking around with my cousins and Bro (who knew he could joke) and took pictures in which i will upload to facebook once i get the opportunity. Than it was of to the alleys at safra in which I wake the lanes to a high of 174...well it was not as high as my 201 score when i got back..bt nonetheless it was great. And i ran into my uncle ah kiat. We were out to about 1 am.

Well saturday was preety bleak as compared to the day before. somehow that day I felt a sense of regret of not extending my stay as I look at my mum and listening to her say how she is going to miss me over this next whole year (since I am not sure when Ill be back). A lil bit tormented but i survived

Shouldnt have had BK burger before heading to the planes but my bro and i were starving cause our last meal was at breakfast which was like 9-10 hrs ago. Then i realised that my boarding gate was closing and boarding had commenced. I was panicking and hug and kissed everyone especially my mum and rushed into the departure hall and practically ran to the departure gate and boarded the plane straightaway. However my mad rush was not needed since the plane was delayed for about 20mins This qantas flights....Selalu jek lambat

I get a bit of a kick when the plane is taking off. It feels as if your body is tight in Knots as the plane increases it speeds and before realising it you're almost vertical and you can feel the pressure building. I love taking off...but i hate touchdowns. they make me want to scream. so basically I got my 2 doses of kicks and 2 doses of screaming as i transited at perth airport as usual (i slept there for like 3 hours...Cool right?). On the plane to sydney airport, i actually fell asleep and missed my breakfast serving. When i woke up, I realised the lady beside me was also sleeping and had missed her breakfast. Then I suddenly looked down and saw her leg which was tatooed with henna. i was impressed by the designs and kept looking at it without even realising that the flight attendant was asking if I wanted breakfast before giving me a smirk on his face. OH my god! i love breakfast in planes!! I had Cereal!! Cereal in planes and yogurt (which is not a good combination after you had milk)

Upon touching down I calmly walk out the airport terminal (oh by the way...when i was in perth I passed thro the customs without examinations...apparently they think my muddy shoes didnt need declaring..heheh..but that is beside the point). So I was walking out of sydney domestic aiport but this time I was totally alone. No happy cabby or anyone to greet me. I smiled to myself thinking...This is so amazing. A year ago..f you had asked me to come here alone i would be petrified and probably feel like a lost puppy (thank god my mum was with me last year). I just went down to the train platform and bought a ticket to Broadmeadow station. A whooping 3 hour ride away

The train ride was less than eventful as I was joined by other people who were back from their summer getaway/vacation. I could hear kids screaming, people chattering but I was just too jet lagged to even bother and instead fell asleep for the god knows how many times that day

Reaching Broadmeadow train station, I felt this untold confidence brimming over me. i cant believe i am merely 30 minutes away from my destination. Haha

Yup exactly 30 minutes of bus ride and walking, I finally reached my destination. No 6 Kimian avenue.

I didnt hear anyone at home so I went into my room which was number 6 by the way and sat down. First thing i did was change and set up my laptop and finally crahsing into bed without so much of lunch/dinner after that breakfast

after a whooping 13 hours sleep in which I missed a phone call(I never miss a phone call unless the phone is not near me) and endless weird dreams. I woke up on a monday and realised that I haven had any damn food for about 24 hours. I searched my cabinet crazily and thank god i had found 2 packets of Noodles. It could at least tie me up for monday before iget set to my shopping.

the rest of monday went unevenful (besides that the electricity keeps going off) i cleaned my room, threw out my clothes, abit of my old notes, watched neighbours (to aussinizes myself..where i realised in the world of neighbours 2 months is equivalent to about 6 months i think...hahaha)

So Now i had a list of things to do and will be busy the next couple of days to try completing the tasks

Ok now gtg. My SBS channel is calling. I wonder if my gay show is til being shown...hmmm. they finished the serial before i got back..so lets see

Bye everyone

I had been feeling restless for the past week. I thought that I was going to be happy to head back to Newcastle. However Now I am not so sure. Maybe its because I had gotten used to the routine here in Singapore and i know that the next time I'll be back in Singapore is when I have completed my degree. But there is a huge possibility that I wont return even at the end of this Year. More like a 75% chance id be staying there.

My back is aching like nuts man.

Found that scholarship that was offered to me last year by UQ. im bringing it with me to Newie and itll be put on my wall so that i will not shortchange my efforts this year.

currently watching the reruns of chronicles of narnia. I do like fantasy movies in which the characters are destined to do something great beyond their imagination.

i hope that in my life Id get to do something great beyond my imagination.

Had this massive feeling of depression when I woke up and I felt that I could snap at anyone

So to avoid any confrontation within my chemically inbalanced self I went out for a running while bitching whatever i was feeling. It felt great once I was done

Im going back to Newie next week. Which when I think of it is really fast. i cant believe 7 weeks has already passed by.

ok gtg. bye

I gained a lot of weight since I got back....Grr...why do they have food at every corner of this area. Must stay away. im feeling a bit sick nowadays. No idea why

was reading the expat living magazine and I realised that the expats in singapore are so well-of...How can this be??? They take our jobs, live comfortably, get to travel here and there and their kids go to International schools. argh...unfair...but then again...half of my friends in newie are expat's children. Such a conflict

maybe i should go work somewhere else ad become an expat....hehehe

I am going into JB this evening. Just to visit relatives and all

2 More weeks and ill be heading back to Newie.

Met Ika and Rachel Yesterday and I quizzed them on what they were going to do after they graduate. None of them had an answer. that goes the same for me too. What do I do? -_-"

Stressed to think about it. Probably need a long distance call to a friend and ask their opinions

At home now. i have cable box. one is the MIO tv and the digital SCV. The Mio Tv was installed since it was free and I had SCV since i could remember. I use the Mio Tv adapter to access the internet. You know like wireless although i do have to attach the adapter to my lappie

Applying for a job in the telecommunications retail store. under optus. I hope they will consider me for the part time position.

Was talking to rekha on the phone just now and she was cursing the indian tamils which is causing a stir in kl. They are suing the british government for 4 trillion us dollars for past colonial injustice that were done to them. Even I didnt know that. its not million or billion but trillion. I dont even know how many zeroes there is in a trillion. Maybe 9....Yeah i think is 9 zeroes.

So many things to look up ahead for

Sometimes i forget that I have a blog. Yeah. Apparently this world doesnt seem to exist when i am not busy. i have no idea why.

Anyway. I was looking at the dimia website under migration to Australia. I need to plan when I am going to apply for my PR there. Then got to find some part time job to sustain me there.

No wonder i dont blog. I am boring myself with this entry. hahahaha

Apparently Year 2008 is 2 days away. And I am Slacking like no one's business. Routinely waking up at 10am and then watching tv (Maybe spongebob :D) followed by an hour of shower, then more tv sleep more tv.....(well not all days are like this...some days I do go out) hehehe

One more month before I am heading back to Newie.

Oh Yeah Want to say thanks to everyone that wished me a happy birthday and merry Xmas. It feels nice to be 21 and not do anyhing. Haha

Ok gtg. Must help mummy do the laundry. Hey Im not all lazy bone ok

Ok Hari Raya Haji started of with the normal prayers. This time it was held at the huge basketball court near my house. Prayed underneath the puffy white clouds and underneath there it was when You realised that you are small. THough at the end of the prayer the sky turned greyish the wind was blowing till the sermon had to be done really quickly (untraditionally) and everyone scattered to nearby shelter. Went to Gma house as usual and I ate like a pig.(Quite literally) every chance i had u can see me with a plate of food. caught up with my relatives and I wish I earned like some money each time people ask me how living i Aussie was. I would be rich. But the thing is when they ask me "Best or not stay in Aussie??" Please define best for me?? Travel wise? food wise? Freedom wise? Of course Best lah!!!

Weekend, my mum decided to stay over in Sentosa. I was all up for the idea since its been so long since we tok a vacation. Just the 3 of us. We drove into Sentosa and checked into the Sentosa Resort and SPa. When we stepped into the room, I felt like we were in Bali. the room was so intimate and definitely must go for couples but there were 3 of us. My bro got the extra bed and my mum and I slept on the Oh SO comfortable king sized bed and super duper fluffy and humongous pillow. We then went to the spa and had mud baths and flotation pools.Wanted to go into the jacuzzi but then it was under maintenance. THe mud really did wonders to my pimple. it sucked it dry!! hahahaha. Then we went to swim at the hotel pool at 10 pm and the water was so warm that i just sat there enjoying the sights and gazing into the moon. Wanted to trek down to tanjong beach but realised it was 132 steps down. But nonetheless what mattered was my family got to spend quality time together. Oh yeah and I realised another fear of mine..I am so afraid of drowning. I think that the incident when i was child still has got something to do with it. Hahaha. Actually i am afraid of deep end pools

K lah. gtg. too lazy to post up pictures

Definitely had a great weekend. Swimming on friday, sentosa on saturday and town on sunday. And today got to spend time with my mummy dearest having breakfast at Mac's since she is finally of on her week long break.

I am stuffed. For 3 days straight i had been eating junk from the various outlet of fast food chains and having that frappe from starbuck. ive finally found something that i could drink from my starbucks without the fear of puking. The chocolate frappucino with cream doesnt have the coffee taste at all. Thank goodness. The weekend was nice catching up with Ira, Thanh and Farhana. Farhana hasnt change at all. Ira I think you know what i mean.

tomorrow is the so called traditional day for me, bro and mum. Somehow on the 18th of december each year, we would all take off and go out have breakfast together, then go do our shopping together.

Raya Haji is a few days away. Going to have fun.

Been Feeling kind of moody lately. I have no idea why. Maybe PMS but this is probably the worst i have ever felt for a long time. Maybe boredom and lack of places to visit is driving me bonkers

the only thing that perks me up is the daily endorphins being released in my body from all the running and pushups. I think my body is becoming buffed from all this

Yeah whatever.

i think that I am scared of turning 21. I know that most of my friends had already passed that stage but I am still going into it. Honestly it scares the shit out of me. at 21 I have no job, still a dependent on my parents and have no idea what to do with my life

although I have this burning desire to become an entrepreneur. That Discovery channel show of Europes riches people is inspiring me. Not to Say that I have been dreaming since young to own a company

I am thinking of taking up yoga. Haha. Ive dont kickboxing, body attack, combat but ive never thought of taking up yoga. Maybe i should start. Should start on the basic of hatha yoga

I survived another semester. Phew. Felt good about my results. I actually kind of forgot that my results were coming out today. There goes my Brain

Suffering from a serious case of sinus and cold.

Had pancakes in the morning, then had rice and pizza in the evening. My belly is full and my arteries are blocked. But No worries. I am in A party mood

Going to Batam for short holiday. going to a beach resort and im looking forward to the spa and massage compared to anything else....Wahaha Evil snigger

My villain self....

Your results:
You are Magneto

Magneto 88% Apocalypse 86% Dr. Doom 84% Venom 75% The Joker 75% Dark Phoenix 72% Juggernaut 71% Lex Luthor 68% Riddler 68% Mr. Freeze 61% Mystique 59% Two-Face 55% Kingpin 51% Poison Ivy 48% Green Goblin 43% Catwoman 42%

You fear the persecution of those that are different or underprivileged so much that you are willing to fight and hurt others for your cause.

Click here to take the "Which Super Villain am I?" quiz...

I think that turning 21 bug is biting me now. I still do have about 18 more days to it but somehow i was too crazy to wait for it. Bought myself a new blouse, Adidas deodorant over the week. Then today I had myself a new haircut in which i had snipped out the hair of between the age of 18 and now. Well i did cut my hair several times but this is the most drastic change ever. I like my new hairstyle. hehe

I finished Eat Love Pray like 2 days back. One of the best book ive read so far. definitely

Planning to go to Sentosa next sat and sunday.Saturday to meet ira and sunday to meet my Newie friends.

i am Missing my friends from Newcastle. that close knit group of mates you make is now scattered throughout SEA and other parts of the world

Bought some stuff thetoday including a new top, deodarant and a new book. The book I have been dying to read " Eat Pray Love"

Hey Ira if I dont update the next few days I want to wish you a happy Birthday. MAy your 21st be the best one yet!!! Cheerios!

Wow. I took such a long time to update my recent events. It is kind of hard not having a laptop around. However since I am back home now, I can use my brothers laptop and update on my recent developments ( I sound like a stock marker analyst)

After my last paper ended, I called up Ika and we decided to go out into town for Harry's Pie. It was a chilly night and I was psyched that my exams were over finally.

The next day, Ika's friend from Singapore came and I was like their guide around. Borrowed kak shazana car and I drove to Newcastle Beach. Rachel, Kak TIni, Muna and I went to play rugby at the beach and it was so much fun. We had Ice Cream from the usual place and drove around to the sights.

The next day borrowed Kak Wardiah's car and I drove to Nelson Bay, Shoal Bay, Stockton Beach and to Nobby's Beach. Then we spend the night shopping in Jesmond to get our chocolates and I helped Rachel move some of her stuff out from International House

The next day was off to sydney. I arrived earlier than the girls who as usual were late.Went around chinatown and paddy's market and I shopped like crazy. the girls called saying they had arrived and wanted to go to Circular Quay. BEing the budget traveller, rachel and I walked down george street where we passed billabong, ripcurl,adidas, valley girl, supre and so much more that my eyes were spoilt for choice. Instead of 20 mins the 'walk' stretched up to an hour. As we reached Circular Quay, we saw the stages surrounding it as Sydney prepares for the Australian Idol FInale. We saw the final two matt and nathalie(who became the eventual winner) and took pictures of all that was happening.

then we went to the rocks for some more window shopping and realised they were going to have a night market on. Went to pancakes on the rocks and there were so many people that I think my ear drums almost ruptured. The noise and air pollution of cbd sydney was a bit too much to handle and i realised how much i miss Newcastle vastness

Slept at YHA and the next day we went shopping a bit more at paddy market and caught the train home

The next 2 days i was busy packing my stuffs, cleaning my room and settling a few debts. Even managed to call rekha up and ask how she was.

After reaching home I decided to see nina in the hospital. Her state was heart wrenching and when i was allowed to see her, i felt terrified, I probably said the stupidest thing ever. Luckily my mum was there with me if not i think i would have cried like a baby. I cant believe it was her. I just cant believe it. People..let us pray for nina's recovery and hope she gets better soon. Amin

Well that is it. Id update soon. Going to COurts to see if anything can be done for my laptop.

Honestly, I feel that I have finished exams even though I have one more paper to worry about.

Went to this hotel restaurant in which i reckon the staffs are a bit racist. Thus i shall not set foot into that place anymore. We took the taxi there and the train back. it was a nice trip overall with lots of laugh and jokes being tossed around

I am quite happy that Amita has decided to move in to my place. Yeah! another girl to talk too. Life in the house has become pretty boring lately with exams and people not being at home. Feel like i could crash and burn if i stay at home a lot. Thus i shall stay in Uni and camp at Ika's place after exam.

Cant wait for this safety paper to be over. My itchiness to shop and to travel has been repressed enough.

Hope that nina is going to be fine. heard from Ira what happened. I just hope she gets better. i hope i get to meet her when come back to Singapore.

I have a bad habit of switching my laptop on just as I wake up, followed by making my bed, then taking the toothpaste and toothbrush and head to the toilet.

Today however, after i went through all my morning ritual and went to Uni with my lappie everything was fine. When I reached Uni, things start to take its turn.

When i settled in, I realise that I didn't bring my notes to study with. So what is the point of staying. So I moved my ass which just settled in and head back home. Totally wasted an hour just walking around. When i reach home. the first thing I did was to switch on my lappy again but things took the 2nd wrong turn. It didnt switch on!!! I tried and I tried but the lappie just refuses to let me switch it on!! Argh!! I felt so frustrated that I didnt study and watched tv instead. Wasted like 2 hours before deciding to go to GYm to steam off my anger.

After spending 90mins in the gym with the threadmill, cycling machine, weights and gym ball i decided it was time to go back home since Simpson was going to start showing. I reached home and I tried to switch Lappie back again but it still didnt start! Argh!! I reckon it knows that i am heading back home in less than 2 weeks and so decided to go on strike! Argh!!

Lucky thing it broke down only now. Not when I am doing my 10 lab reports during the semester. that would have been suicidal

Oh well its for the best I guess. No more being addicted to the computer
Currently in Auchmuty. Time 8.35pm. Taking a break from studying. Going to continue till the Library shuts down at 10pm.

My happy thought of the day.
Around this time in 2weeks id be in kl. well on a transit before getting to singapore. Ah HOME. then its food glorious food

Was walking through woolies and there was like tons of chocolate boxes and nicely wrapped display. So going to burn my pocket hole before i go back

GOing to sleep early today so i can wake up early tomorrow to go to Uni to study

Going to miss walking though the jungle of Callaghan with no one in sight. The sense of freedom, peace and serenity. Going to miss this room so bad and go back to that big room at home. haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

I need to sleep now. Wake up at 6am. 8hrs of sleep

Been in the Auchmuty Library since 10.30 am. Time now is 3.46 pm. Woohoo. Did my revision for Separation and currently moving to Safety and Risk

OH GOD
MY body is so aching
Even after the hot shower ( I mean really hot not that ehem! hot) my body is still aching. The sores hasnt gone away. Because of that, i actually went to bed really early yesterday night though they had really nice movie like Mercury Rising and willy wonka on. But i decided to head to bed and set my alarm at 6am. But somehow or rather i didnt hear my alarm or maybe that really good dream i had prevented me from heading back into reality. I woke up with the sun's ray shining through the blue curtains that lay hanging. After realising that reality was upon me I decided to have breakfast and head to the library where i had spent the last couple of hours studying/youtubing/blogging

I love this part of the library during weekends. There is just not a single soul out here near the engineering sections. Maybe because of the fact that its Sunday and only geeks like me go to Uni to study or maybe because the majority of them are in the Information Common where there are tables and tables of computers and it is open 24 hours during the semester for those who does not have internet at home to come and do their work in UNi.I normally would bring my lappie to uni to access the internet from the Uni server from it.

My mum messaged me yesterday saying she was angry with my brother for dying his hair without her permission. I mean she would have been alright with my brother dying his hair if he had asked for permission but the fact that he did it without her acknowledgment showed how much he disrespect her. For myself, I asked my mum if I could dye my hair and she had said yes to me but the thing is I am to lazy to do it. The hassle to colour it and then maintain it. I honestly like my jet black hair. I mean look at it this way. Even the caucasian said my hair was to die for. (PS: i received this comment from a hairdresser) but nonetheless i think i would probably dye my hair soon. Maybe after i graduate and have a fantastic job. I dont want a stable job but a fantastic one.

Oh Thanh...if you are reading this, congratz on getting the job with Dairy Farms. And have fun in holland for your training yeah!! hehehe. Its so cool that she gets to go to Europe for research. Though its a week but its so cool.

Oh hell. Got to get out of here. Want to do some more revision before heading home at 5pm.

My headphones are wet. Maybe due to sweat or the rain. Either way its wet. I need to get it dry

Watched Sin City on prime cause my main aim after the first paper was not to study at all. I guessed I did it
Well heck back to my life. I think I want to sleep early today and wake u maybe at 6 or 7 for a quick run. Hope its not raining that time. I need to plan my day and what i need to study

Had my first paper yesterday afternoon. I think it was alright. I dont know about the stats part though. Really hoping to do well for computations. Please god please

Other than that...I finally hit the gym!! planning to go again tomorrow

Watched the biggest loser just now. Its so cool. Jilian is back and she is in the black team. Man....She trains them hard. I wish she was my trainer. Se is so super cool. When she came in riding that bike..Oh man!! so Super COOl!

Going to go to Library to study tomorrow. Need that peer pressure of everyone studying so i can focus.

Feel abit hungry now. Maybe im dehydrated. I think i should drink something

MORNING EVERYONE

Nothing beats listening to mario's song "Let Me Love You" In the middle of the night on your bed with the sound of raindrops just outside your window. Why does he have to be so hot? Need to get a guy like him. Or maybe some guy that looks like columbus short. He is totally fine (Droolz)

Been stuck in this room for 2 days now. Didnt go out. Just been a happy but lonely camper this past 2 days.

Did some revision for stats and computations. Nothing much else to do. Did some revision on filtration.

Since it was raining heavily, I had to improvise my workout to at home. Been Doing crunches, push ups and jumping here and there. Mind you my room is about half the size of my room back in singapore so its a bit hard to really move around

Oh..wait...I want to wish my Hindu friends a happy diwali/deepavali and a great day ahead for them.

My handphone was called up by a girl today. Dont know who she is but i have her number 0397709918 . it means that she is not from optus I guess. She called me and I answered she asked "hey do you remember me? You asked me to call...blah blah blah.." I said "sorry you got the wrong number and hanged up. She called me again and said "Bitch, whore, slut...Cant you just tell me that i got the wrong number?"...I was like what the **** "Listen i did tell you that you got the wrong number. bloody bitch" and hanged up again. Mind you i was studying and I really dont like to be disturbed when I am in mY "ZONE" ....she called again and hanged up. I was pissed so i decided to wait for her next call. This time I answered but instead of talking i let my music play into the communicator and switched on the loudspeaker. I could hear her say "What the fuck. WHore" and she hand up. I was smiling to myself thinking that this was fun. The girl called about 3 or 4 other times and I answered every single time. I let her listen to A Hindi Song "Mitwa" and I heard her saying "what the hell is this??" hang up. Then I let her listen to some hip hop song from you got served called "Pump it up"...silence and she hang up. the next time she called I let her listen to HAri Raya songs and i could hear her scream saying "What the fuck is this? Damn It" and then hang up. I guess the Hari raya song was the last straw for her and she didnt call back after that.
i was thinking after that and realised that she probably wasted a lot of her credit just calling me and listening to the songs (which are awesome to my ears but torture for her) . Then i realised how stupid this girl is. Calling each time trying to piss me off but instead of me answering her all this songs which are foreign to her were blasted into her ears and she waste her money just by calling. Poor stupid thing

Anyway i think this girls calling me is getting a bit out of hand. Its twice this week. That is too much of a coincidence. Did someone out there gave out my number after he hooked up with all this girls?? Or did my hp number somehow ended up being displayed somewhere for people to call about sex?? Well whatever it is i hope it stops. HEhehe. Or maybe i can call this girl up and then hook up with her. Yeah right...whatever...JUst kidding ok

Want to do a bit more revision before i relax and fall asleep

Watching something on tv at 3.30 in the morning. Unable to sleep. Maybe due to the 3 cups of tea I had previously.

Watching a classic show. You know something in black and white that reminds you of P ramlee stories. But this time its in English and I dont even know the title

Been jumping up and down in my room just to make myself tired. But in the end i got more pumped up. So decided to revise computations. Argh!! I want to sleep! Tomorrow i need to do my revision in Uni

Well whatever. I got to go now. Want to watch something else on tv.

I am stressed. Thus my hunger level is increasing. Damn!

Im stressed cause i do not know what else to study. Been repeating everything for computations and Separation exams. I do not know what to study for statistics though

Did i tell you that I had a mouse running around my room. It had been disturbing me for a few days that i thought i was hearing noises at night. Well it turns out to be a freaking mice. After finding out what time it normally comes to my room, i decided to be ready. When i saw it dashed into my room at the specified time, I took the vacuum cleaner, open up my door, my cupboard and started vacuuming. I was the damn exterminator with that vacuum in my hand i was unstoppable. I was sucking all the corners in my room. Well in the hope of scaring the mice away. I reckoned it work well and not only is my floor clean now there is no mice at all!! hehehehe

I got a call yesterday when i was in the library. It was from a private number. when i picked it up i thought it was my mum but on the other end, was an aussie girl.
Aussie girl: Hey there. Remember me? you gave me your number and asked me to call
Me: Ermm...Sorry i think you got the wrong number
Aussie girl: Oh...really? Its me Natalie. you asked me to call the other day.
Me: Sorry...i really think you got the wrong number
NAtalie: Oh come on...Dont say that. Listen you know that day...I kinda twisted the truth a little bit. i told you i was 18 the other time. but the truth is Im actually 14
Me: Erm Ok Yeah...Ok ...
Natalie: but im going to be 15 tomorrow. You want to meet up??

Oh good on ya for turning 15 tomorrow. But i really think you got the wrong number
Natalie: Do u like bondage?? We can do it tomorrow if you like. Or maybe something else
Me: Hahaha...(nervous laugh)..See i really think you got the wrong number
Natalie: Oh come on...blah blah blah..(at this time i was laughing my heads off and decided to end the conversation)

That is one conversation i would never forget. Cant she tell she was talking to a girl?? Hmm maybe my deep voice had her thinking that i was a dude. Oh Natalie...that was funny. I cant imagine a 15 year old girl saying that to me. Youre the same age as my cousin. *shake head*

Watching Rove on channel ten. Just to chill after running at the gym.

I feel thirsty. Very very thirsty

spend 5 hours in Library studying. My brain felt like it was on the verge of explosion with a ticking pulse feeling on my temple. Argh!

When i go back to singapore, I am going to ask somebody to massage me. My whole body is aching badly. The back of my neck has been killing me.

Mum told me not to bring any clothes back to singapore. so i was thinking of bringing home studd like cake mixes, krisy kreme, sipahh, shades and stuff for my family members. Not forgetting nougat. Hey guys....You want anything??? tell me yeah!!

Listening to Darin Zanyar track called "why does it rain" probably due to the huge fact that it had been raining the whole day here in Sunny Newcastle

I like the rain cause it cleanses the earth and cools down the temperature of the surroundings to be more tolerable. But i dont like the rain during winter. ITS DREADFUL! but nonetheless. Winter is my favourite season

Been studying in Uni since 1 and only ended the revision at 5pm.

I really hope I am ready for Computations/Statistics exams. Honestly I do not know what to learn for statistics except to memorise the equation for standard deviations, variance, probability, Pearson Carr Correlation and blah blah blah. I have a bit more confidence in Computations. Really hoping Both Scott and Shaun will be merciful to the students. Amin

Right now my floor is a mess. My notes are spread out on it. THis is due to my lack of backbone and thus i prefer studying on the floor. A Bad habit since young. I also have my headset on instead of the speakers which was unusual but i guess i am the only one who needs to listen to music while studying unlike most other people I know. I just hate the silence. But I guess due to that my housemate, tuli thought i was asleep.

How can I be sleeping when the exams are like a week away??? Gila Ke??? Want to mampus and cremate me is it?? Oklah whatever. Need to continue to mug for exams. This exam weather is reminding me of previous exam.

Really hope to do well. Amin. GOD if you're reading this through your own world wide web please answer my prayers. I promise to be good....AMin.

.Salamz and Bye

In NEed of a new studying strategy. I need to focus more and burn the midnight oil. I know I can do this.

a new strategy.

A walk in the rain has screwed my brain up.

Im resting now. Worked my brain for about 5 hrs today. Finally got the concept of Evaporation, CrystalliZation. Still got to work on filtration and Drying. I hope i get it by next week

As usual my day will be included with a dosage of gym. I was sweating alot by the time i finish my run and cycling. My faced turned reddish and it blushes so much. i am LOBSTER DURRAH!! Id Outrun any human trying to catch me

People are ganging up on me online. Trying to make me pick and choose. Im dead

Dinner tomorrow. So freaking lazy to go. Bleargh!

I am mentally exhausted. Physically drained. Only been getting broken sleep. Need somebody to motivate me.

I really need this to end as fast as possible

Cheers

I finally realised why i havent really lost any significant amount of weight. I realised that my workouts were...well monotonous and plateaued alot. I didnt have that increase in intensity my body badly needs. and i am also not on diet.

From today onwards i shall exercise regularly and be on a diet for 5 days a week and train my body not to eat at night as it has been doing

I know it is exam time and stress level is high and i will definitely have a relapse but I shall not deter.

i so need to lose weight.

This week i finally caught up with my 2 really close friends which i had made i newcastle. Rekha who is in malaysia having her break and Thanh who is in Vietnam

Honestly, whoever invented msn or messenger i a pure genius. ahaha. You can catch up with anyone around the world at the convenience of home, cafe etc..just naming a few

rekha is youre reading this (cause i know you bookmarked my webpage) i hope you are doing well and i am looking forward to talk to you on tuesday. Thats if you read my email. Why are u so anti-technology???? hahaha. Just kidding

Thanh, if youre reading this, i must say u look really preety in your engagement picture. I really hope you will be able to get the job with Dairy FArms.

i reall hope to meet both of u soon

Currently watching ARIAS. i must say its well executed but i just wish they have other variety of host. Instead of rove and that aussie idol host. Kinda a bit overexposed. must have variety

Didnt workout one bit at all today and have been junking out with pasta, weetbix, hot chocolate, indo mee etc

Well i will make up for it tomorrow. I honestly dont feel well today.

Oh by the way. Started daylight savings. 3 hours ahead of singapore now. LAter.

oh did i forget to mention presentation went well? Thank God. Craig (my lab partner) was pretty funny when he delivered his presentation (oh yeah i finally understood him after like 14 weeks!!). I am hoping to do well according to what Shaun had said. really hope for a credit for this 3rd year lab. it has been a difficult semester for people taking labs. Its been mentally demanding

in the library now. Currently near my engineering section and taking a break from computations. Thank god everything is going well. I finally managed the lagrange polynomial, curve fitting, Runge Kutta, Secant method..yada yade yadu...blah blah blah methods. Too many to name

My neck hurts from looking down too much. I havent gotten a peaceful sleep and my body tends to switch on at 6am sharp though i sleep at 2 or 3am or am dead beat from studying and exercising

Had Oaks chocolate milk after the longest time ever and I am still in love with it. The creamiest most delectable taste this taste bud had ever sipped and gulped (ok lah i am crapping right now)

had a busy day and I reckon its going to be like this until i finish my exams. Hope everything goes on well.

Oh well i got to go. Want to listen to this swedish pop star known as Darin song...recommended songs Desire and Step up....He is so cute!! hehehe

Lalalalala...im in my dreamy dreamy land.....jumps up and down roll down the hill run up the hill
What the **** did i just type!!!!A%7^*976@!*

Though you are a thousand of miles away and not really thought of do you always manage to affect me? Why is that. if only you know the effect it has on me though i am a thousand miles away and you probably do not remember me at all.

if i ever have my own family i swear that my kids will not know who you are, my husband will not even mention your name. you will probably have to attend my wedding ceremony due to religious reasons but maybe instead of you I shall ask my brother to give me away. Or maybe i shall not marry and suffer if there are likes of you everywhere in the world

i swear I swear you are now nothing to me than just a name in every identification. i shall not honour your name though you had helped bring me to this world.

i shall not acknowledge you if i were to run into you in the streets or anywhere else in the face of the world. I shall severe my ties from you. ive had enough. I am no longer going to sulk about how things really are but you will regret the rest of your life for everything that you had done. I shall not remember, think or even mention you. To me you are dead. Tombless but dead in my heart in my mind and every inch of my body. you shall not get the satisfaction of saying that your daughter is successful because i wont allow you too. i wont even allow you to be remembered by my brother.

i want to see the look on your face when i am successful with my life while you are still in the same state you were 11 years before.

Goodnight and sweet dreams

I am Scared
Presentation is worth 20% but Something else is bugging my brain. But I shall put it aside
Bad news always happen when I am preparing for something important

****


ARGH!!!!!!
I need to get over today as quickly as possible. Do the things that need to be done and get it over quickly. Dont want to feel messed up

Listening to Shannon Noll "Dont give Up" One of the first few songs i liked when I came here to Newcastle

Dont give up...Dont Give Up.

In uni now and i am thinking about what the hell I am supposed to do
1)Compile the presentation with craig
2)Meet up Asila
3)practice presentation
4)Practice presentation + Slides (is there a difference)
5)Figure out what to wear tomorrow for presentation
6)Gym/Jogging
7)Dont forget to eat One more day before i can finally start revising for exams

NO!!!

when rachel told me that the modelling and separation module had 3 exams i was like huh?? i thought they were 2. then I realised that there is in fact 3. With the modelling theory, hysys and the separation part. Hahah

3 more exams to do then i am free. wahaha

Dont really know what the hell i modelled for hysys program. The 2nd question was a kiler for everyone. damn it. there goes the 25 marks

Its 2.08am here in Newcastle i am in Auchmuty Information Common/Library/The Uni. Reached this place around 9.40pm with Ika. I continued my revision on Modelling and now understand some part of it. No confidence whatsoever for the exam on Monday. I am a dead duck.

Before that i went to the gym (No surprise there) and ran on the threadmill for 40 mins or less. My faced turned pinkish for the first time in my entire life as i stopped that equipment. Hahah. I guess the combination of speed 10 and incline is something i have to get used to.

Hoping to borrow Zee's car on sunday so that i can drive to town with ika to buy domino's and pide.

Ika is still studying!! Oh my god!! We are heading back at 3am. Hope its not too cold outside.

Will update something more interesting if there is soon.

Oh My god!! i was reading my old entries and I almost died at the way I had typed my entries. It was so childish. i cant believe that was how i Blogged 3 years back in 04. i cant believe. Laughing till it hurts Tongiht i shall camp in Uni. need to revise my statistics and figure out the 8 weeks of classes that I had missed. then start on computations and start from the 4th week i had left the class. HEHE

I need to do something else besides this!! its killing me!!

Feeling a bit stressed. Modelling exam is on Monday and itl be worth a lot. Than on Wednesday ill have my presentation which is 20% of the module. I feel the pressure

Exams are occuring in less than 3 weeks. I seriously cant wait to get it over and done with. Have a lot of pressure to perform

Went to jesmond to shop yesterday and i swear that at every aisle you just meet somebody you know. And it is not nice not to talk to them. From the bustop to the end of the trip there is always someone you know. Argh!

Going to Uni soon to revise my work with Rachel. currently doing statistics. For the moment it is going well

Planning to do up a timetable so that id be able to balance my studying with a bit of play.

It scares me that i am going to be a graduate (insyallah( before i turn 22. Then what???

its already thursday. over here it means that grocery shopping for a lot of us. This is the day that shopping centre exceeds the normal 5pm closing time to give students, working adults a decent chance to shop without thinking that the place is going to close. Honestly, i sometimes miss the shops in singapore. at least they close at 10pm everyday. Hehe

Doing my revision again. Now I have another thing to add to my do list. A poster for INS for the upcoming farewell dinner. Grr. Why do we have to plan another event in the middle of study time??

Ok back to study. Byte

I was looking at an old secondary school picture of my friend who graduated from Curtin Uni not too long ago i guess. I used to call him Ah Boo and probably he is one of the normal guys in my class. But when he added me on facebook, i could barely recognize him. He look like one of those hot chinese guys which i can oogle at without feeling guilty.

Hahaha. I was thinking about the things I had done in the past few months Ive been here

Never used to socialize or stay over at a friends place...now I do. Not really a party person..but now every week there seem to be a party somewhere. People's birthday, celebrations here and there. Went clubbing alot last semester but only been there once since i came back from June Hols. Danced with guys I barely know...hmmm...twice...(not joking). Seriously...my lifestyle here is so much different from back in singapore. I feel more freedom here as i am able to put on my shoes and fo wherever i feel like it. Come back home at 3-4 am without feeling guilty and there isnt a need to explain to anyone. Wore clothes i never thought i would (though i still prefer my slacker's clothes). Being at a very different comfort level with friends like hugging one another, walking all hand in hand, having one to one late night conversation, going out for dinner as a group, cook dinner for people. Just everything is basically so different. Is this what we call the Overseas experience? i have no idea. Or is it just part of growing up? I mean though i dont drink I swear i think i just feel drunk.haha. I really have no idea.

Well ok now. Got to go. Study time

I cant believe i have only 24 more days to exam. In fact my first round of exams is on next monday with Prof Behdad Modelling exams. Brr. i can feel the chill

I dont know if i can do well for any of the exams. That is why i must study really hard and smartly. No more hanky pankying around if there is even such a word. Hmm.

I hate showering after i finish gym. my body just get all tired and slacked. my brain wants to switch off. But i got to study. I have to!! persevere. Dont give up Durrah

I have to prepare for my presentation today so I shall not go out. Well it is not due in another week or so. But i believe in preparation

A day before Hari Raya, I wasnt psyched as what laid before me was a huge task of cooking and cleaning. We finished baking the Tarts, London Cookies, Suji,cornflakes like a week ago and the chocolate pound cake a week ago too.

The even of hari raya, I started cooking my ketupat and rendang (from Scratch!!) at 12pm. I was so tempted to eat that rendangbut held myself back from doing it as i was fasting. Then i went to ika's place to cook more dishes. I help marinate the chicken and i must say it tasted so good that i wanted to just sit down and eat it. hehehe. The guys cooked sambal goreng, ika made the mutton curry, asila, made the briyani, kavi, fish green curry, amita the chapati. I think the cooking part was much more fun compared to eating it.

Hari raya day. I slept at 3 am and woke up at 7 and realised that i missed the prayers! argh! called ika and zee saying that i am sorry and guess what they also overslept. they did go to the prayers still but it already ended. I went to ika with my baju kebaya in the bag and helped kavi make the nasi minyak. We were so proud of ourselves after we arranged the stuffs and food. The first batch of people came in a huge wave and ate like half of the food. The second batch was too stuffed from house visiting that they didnt wanna eat that much. In the end there were so much of food left that we think that there will be enough food for all of us for the next 2 weeks. hahaha. At night we went to the medic student seniors house. i had more to eat and felt so stuffed after that. Decided to go back home after the isit and i changed to my old jeans and jumper since it was a cold night. Went back to ika's place where amita had set up the place for the after party. I was dead beat by this time but nonetheless we all had fun dancing to the songs and chilling out and saying a job well done

day after. I felt my whole body ache. Maybe dead beat from the whole week of planning and the day of cooking. Going out for lunch at Ika's place. On the menu Yesterday's leftovers. HEHE. Then going to watch cricket in IH while doing my assignment. hehe

Well gtg now. wanna wash my face anfd freshen up. Bye

I am supposed to research on the Sipah to link up with my presentation on packed bed. But ive not gotten around to do it. Been slacking yesterday as i got out of bed later than usual. Should really start studying but i have no mood. Everything also have no mood. Even to celebrate Hari Raya I don't have any mood. If I was at home right now what i would be doing is cleaning my room, the house. Changing the curtains, bedsheets. Now im just bored out of my brains. No mood for anything. Holidays are ending soon. its kinda breezing through. I have hysys exam coming up. In another 2 weeks

Today is graduation day in Uni. I am wondering when it will be my turn for graduation. Wearing that Robe with that squarish hat on me. Hahaha. I better get down to work if i am ever to graduate. Ciaoz

This holidays i have 3 reports, a presentation and 3 assignments to complete. And it is alreasy tuesday of the 2nd week of hols. I dont even know what I did for the last week at home. Its just one assignment after another and one report after another.

Completed my safety assignment and on the verge of completing my modelling and separation assignment. Right now i am currently in ES building and not really concentrating on anything.

Worried about saturday though. Dont know if the food will be enough. Dont know if people will mingle and come at all. Not sure about how we are going to talk to all the people though

die die. sure die

I was doing my safety and risk assignment when I suddenly thought about this. Being an Overseas University Student

Honestly, if i was in singapore, i probably wouldnt care much about the friends I make because I will probably just stay home most of the time since everything is there. My support group is at home being my mum and family members and a few of my friends. I probably wouldnt want to go out and travel as much and see the behaviour of people around me as it is constantly the same. Everyone seems to be rushing here and there and noone says hi to one another anymore. They walk facing straight, their eyes filled with blankness

Over here, i found myself wanting to surround myself with friends, trying to strike up a conversation, smiling to people i barely know, traveling to all the different sites, seeking adventure, finding solitude and all. Having the ultimate education experiencce from the time i have here

Then the studying part. I guessed it would have been easier of i were to start in first year compared to third year. There are times when i feel totally lost at whatever the lecturers or even the students are saying since I still haven't yet grasped the technical terms being used. Though Ive studied under this course for almost 3 years, i realised that my polytechnic education was insufficient when it came to technicality. Nonetheless, i am appreciative of what i studied there as we do have an advantage when it comes to experiments and hard work

In Uni, everyone struggles. Some lesser, some...a little bit more. I probably categorized myself in the middle of both. Well noone said it was easy. if i were to just stop at my diploma i would probably end up as a technician only but if i were to end up with a degree I would become an Engineer. A Chemical Engineer. See how fancy it sounds. A little struggle now wont mean a thing in the future. I am even planning to do my Masters or even Post Grad after I completed my degree. i really hope ill be able to do it

Right now, i guess being a Uni student isnt so hard. Though there were times i asked myself "WHat the hell am I doing here?? Am I out of my mind?" but when i realised that i prefer studying than working and i enjoy the company of people around me i feel glad that I am here and nowhere else

Life as a Uni student isnt so bad when you are prepared to make the best out of it

Alright enough of me rambling. I still have a question to do before i have to start another assignment of mine

Cheers